After church I met Rachel and gave her the $1000 and the moment I did, I lost it. I started to cry. Really cry. Poor Rachel had no idea why in the moment b/c I couldn't even talk. I was so overwhelmed.
As we ate lunch we talked about having your heart soft. That's where we are right now. Emotions are close to the surface. Overwhelmed with simply thankfulness. A place of surrender. Streaked faces from sudden crying episodes, constant images in our heads of 2 precious children needing us...and it feels like a beautiful mess. Mess because it feels crazy. Life just changed dramatically for us in the last few weeks. Beautiful because it's right in the center of where God wants us to be and in the mess...there is a surreal peace...and excitement to watch God work.