The Israelites were there for 40 years...on their way to the Promised Land. And it couldn't have been pretty.
167 mentions of God's promise...from what I could see...in the Bible regarding the Promised Land. "God promised the land of Canaan to the Jews as an unconditional covenant – 55 times the Bible records that God confirmed the gift with an oath. Twelve of those times He stated that the covenant was everlasting." (according to one Bible site).
Nothing like the Israelites, but in our own small tribe...I feel stuck in the land "in between".
We look back at the three huge events in our life recently that led us here and there is not a shred of doubt that God was directing each move. It was actually so extreme, we often commented that we felt like we were in the bleachers watching God make each play. Each of these three big events were crazy God-moves and brought us to this cute, smallish...rental house.
It's not tiny. It's just that we are rather...huge.
For most families...it would be a lovely situation. For us...it's a little crammed.
It was short stop on the way to our house. Temporary. Necessary. But very...temporary.
This week we found out we are not able to start building our house until at least January. Could be the next year.
I'm not going to lie...it was a gulp. No. It wasn't. It was not a gulp. It was a sob.
Jokingly the day before we heard this news, I said to Dean "if for some crazy reason we couldn't build our house right now...I would need a serious attitude-overhaul to settle in here".
I poured out my heart to my sweet confidant friend today. And she reminded me of the lessons that are learned...in the land...in between.
It's not where you are going. It's not where you want to be. It's only do-able with joy because it's just a necessary place along the journey...to the final destination. But don't stop there. And...definitely don't set up your home there. It's the land...in between.
And here we are. I had a good cry and asked God..."why here? Why take us here? We were comfortable in our house? We were in no hurry to move forward...You brought us here...to leave us here...?"
Oh. I'm sure we'll see the lessons of the heart...that can be learned in this land....of the in-between.
I know we aren't the only ones pitching our tent in this land. Half way to where we are really going. The hardest part is that we can see it. The land is there. We own it. Our name is on it. It is ours. It's not a hope...a dream...a goal...it's a reality. It's ours. Yet we are here. In this rental house...not where we want to be. Stuck.
And God is still God...in this land. He's still leading us...though it looks as though He stopped. He didn't. So we wait. On Him. To show us what is next.
In-between. The last place you want to be.
Attitude overhaul...? Happening now. :)