The update...was the factual..medical...update.
This is the real update.
I feel like I could be sick at the thought of what is ahead. Why didn't it work? It's too early to be rejected. We were told we would not know for 6 weeks if the body accepted it. Day 9 and it will be all removed. What happened?
Then I remember my commitment to not ask "why?". Wrong question.
It's not about "why...?" that's just anger that never gets satisfied. Is there any answer that would be good enough for my heart...? I can't see the full picture. I don't have the bird's eye view. I couldn't handle the answer right now.
But I do know "Who...?". I know Who is with us.
It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” Deuteronomy 31:8.
That's all that matters.
And the song that has been consistently in my head all evening...
"You are good...you are good...and Your love...endures forever..."
With all the questions I refuse to ponder any further...I will focus on what I do know.
I do know He wastes nothing. I do know He is right here with us...promising never to leave. I do know He sees the end...He has the full-picture view. I do know...
"...it's not a dead end road...if it takes you where you needed to go..."
My heart hurts tonight. This isn't how this was supposed to be. Yet...I find total peace in the One who loves Azlan more than my heart could ever be capable of.
And He is good...He is good...and His love...endures forever.