Friday, January 30, 2015

My constant.

I woke this morning with this song going over and over and over in my head.  I haven't listened to it in months.  I love how God speaks.

I sat at my desk, kids in school (I'm the teacher) and the phone rang.

Children's Hospital.

Why is this surgery tearing me up inside?  Why is this so hard for me?

I honestly can't articulate the answer.

I don't know. All I know is tears are just a thought away.

The nurse called, told us what time to check in. Procedures.  Then stopped.

"Janice...? Are you ok?"

Pause.

A quiet "of course, yes I'm ok"

"Janice...it's going to be ok."

"Yes, yes. Of course."

I hang up the phone blinking back more tears when I remember how I woke. This song. Yes. I need to go look it up and read the lyrics.

The sun comes up, the sun goes down
We're watching and we're waiting
The wind blows north, the wind blows south
Life is always changing
But You stay the same
God, You, You remain

You're my constant in the change
You are the color that never fades
Every season I go through
Is bringing me closer to You

A newborn cries, we say good-bye
Blink and life it passes
Chasing dreams, we break our wings
But we'll just keep on dancing
And You lead the way

You're my constant in the change
You are the color that never fades
Every season I go through
Is bringing me closer to You

Till everything falls into place
When we're standing face to face
Every healing and heartbreak
Bringing me closer

Then sings my soul out in wonder
Then sings my soul, You are the answer
Then sings my soul, I'm Yours forever
Then sings my soul out in wonder
Then sings my soul, You are the answer
Then sings my soul, I'm Yours forever

You're my constant in the change
You are the color that never fades
Every season I go through
Is bringing me closer to You

Till everything falls into place
When we're standing face to face
Every healing and heartbreak
Bringing me closer to You

And I smile.  Yes this season, too, is bringing me closer to my Savior.  And my favorite, favorite...is the line I woke singing:


You're my constant in the change
You are the color that never fades
Every season I go through
Is bringing me closer to You


I need a constant.  So do you.  Life is crazy.  We never know what's around the corner.  But I do have a constant in all the unpredictable tomorrows.


2 comments:

  1. Praying for your heart, Janice--and your handsome young man, Azlan too! Praying the surgery goes well, that the Lord guide the surgeon's and assistants hands. Praying for success, minimal pain and miraculous results!

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  2. It's so wonderful to experience peace in the middle of a storm! Thanks for posting!

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