She was laying on my lap. The kitchen was buzzing with kids. The puppy laying in her kennel not far from us. She was fussy. Eyes going all over the place. I was leaning over her...6 inches from her face. Then...it happened. She caught my eyes.
And everything changed.
Her legs settled...her face softened...and whatever was frustrating her moments before seemed to disappear. And then those little eyes squinted and her smile took up her whole face.
She's only 10 weeks old. I was emotional.
I said out loud to her..."ahhh...this is just like your mama!"
In my own world. My mind racing a million miles a minute. Tormented. Down hearted. Panicking about the future. And then...I look up.
He's right there. Just waiting for me to catch His eye.
Whatever it was...I don't even know in that moment. When I catch a glimpse of him. And I like to think my smile takes over my whole face just like little Topaz.
She stayed smiling at me for several minutes. Locked eyes. And then...she got distracted and looked away and started fussing again.
It made me think...we can be right there...He can be right there...but we are so internalizing that we just don't see. I never backed away. I was still looking at her eyes. I was still smiling. She looked away.
Today...whatever you are going through...I hope you just take a moment to look up. See how He is faithful. He's never left you. Not in the worst of the worst of the worst that you have experienced. I can say this from just surviving the ultimate fire that life could ever bring. I'm so thankful I had friends that would constantly remind me that He was right there. Because there were many more moments that I couldn't see him than what I could.
Hang on. You are still being held.